Listen to your Inner Child

I was made redundant this week. The company is having financial problems and cutting on everything. I am not frustrated. I look at it as “one door closes, another door opens”. Plus I have my Hooponopono and I trust that I will have a much better job in all aspects.

Having got my news I thought of writing my ex boy friend. Just wanted to share with him. I hesitated whether to write him or not. I was thinking for a couple of days. And cleaning at the same time. I was waiting to see if it was a good idea to do. Well, my inner child insisted on me emailing the ex. So, I did. I just wrote that I was looking for a new job. He replied with a surprise about my job.

We emailed each other during two days. And I found out that he was opening his own business with his business partner who is … his woman. My first reaction – pain, hurt. But at the same time I was cleaning and cleaning. And some time later came the answer: this is the true end of our story, no more illusions, no more hopes and wishes. And I felt easier. I had a feeling that eventually everything’s clear now. And I can really go on with my life.

My inner child insisted on me emailing my ex. I’m glad I listened to my inner baby. This way I just drew the line. My inner child helped me to close the story.

Interesting, one door with my job closed down and opened a whole new horison for me. And my personal life is clear now, too. The door with my ex closed down and opened a whole new horizon, too. I’m finally totally free to meet a new love. Without looking back.

Freedom. I’m open for everything new and much better quality.

And one more thing. I painted this picture just some time ago. It’s for myself. My painting. It symbolises that I have everything in my life now, boats are already here, arrived and parked. Boats of Love, Health, Wealth, Family, Purity.

 

That’s a good sign!

A year ago, my boyfriend left for another country to work. He didn’t tell where he was going to stay, where he was going to work. He said he would never tell me because he didn’t want me to search him. Also, he changed his email address. He was going to start a new life ….. without me.

The fact that he didn’t want to tell me anything was a sign of my strong addiction to him. You know that if you are strongly attached to your dream or something you’ll never get this. And in my case I understood that perfectly. I didn’t insist on anything. Of course, I was upset, disappointed, down. I had nothing to do but accept. I continued practising Hooponopono. I worked on my letting him go. I enjoyed the whole  process of cleaning. I painted my pictures.

Three months later, he called me and said that going to that country was a mistake and that I was right. Also, he told me he was going to a different country then. And this time he even sent me a copy of the new contract he was going to sign.

I said to myself “wow, it’s a good sign that my cleaning and letting him go really worked”. And of course, I accepted his decision too. I understood he was trying to find himself in life. It was becoming even interesting for me to watch his movements, his life. I have been a watcher!

Well, just a month or so later, he wrote me how he started his new life. And again this time he even told me where he was living and working. And another month later he eventually gave his new email address.

All that were just signs of my deep inner work. I never asked him for his email address or postal one. He did that himself. That happened because I am already different inside. I’m not emotionally attached to him any more. I haven’t started a new relationship. But I’m ready and open for that now. I’ve recovered and came over my addiction. I’ve cut off the aca cords.

Just today I was reading a new book by Joe Vitale Awakening where he said that if you wish something just stop being attached to it, stop needing it. Otherwise you’ll emit the kind of energy that will only prevent your wish to come true. But taking the dream easily you emit the energy of love, independence. And your dream will come true very soon.

Well, I think I managed that. I changed and started taking everything easier, much easier! I feel free and I like it!

Side Effect of Hooponopono Cleaning

The main thing when you’re cleaning is – don’t expect miracles or don’t expect the result or don’t expect anything at all.

I divorced my husband 10 years ago. He drank and lost his many jobs and just ruined himself totally. He ruined his health and caught a tuberculoses. For the last three years he has been in hospitals. And we were ready for any result. His Mom is a doctor so she said the outcome could be 50/50. No one could predict anything.

So, what  could I do here myself? He was my exhusband, now a stranger to me. I dated other men. A year ago I started practicing Hooponopono cleaning. As I wanted my children be happy and healthy I cleaned on them. And as I knew that my children have their own ansestors including my ex and his Mom, I cleaned on them as well. I just addressed the 4 phrases or just “I love you I thank you”  to my ex relatives.

Sometimes I would say “Dear Creator, there’s something in me that caused my ex husband that desease. Please clean and erase whatever is in me that created that desease…..”

Or I would just say Morrnah’s prayer where I included my ex relatives. I forgave them, I accepted the situation. I wished them both only good.

Also, on the other hand, I thought there might be some kind of programe in me that didn’t let me have a loving long term relationship. So, I cleaned on that. I included all men that I failed with.

I didn’t wait for the result. Actually, I even didn’t know what to expect. The main idea for me was to let go deep attachment to my last boyfriend.

As a reasult, finally I could let all my attachments go. And moreover, there turned out to be an unexpected result with my ex husband.

This year, first time for the last 10 years, my ex came to my place with flowers to wish me a happy birthday (in August). He was looking much better. He told me he was recovering and he had quit drinking and smoking (He had beed drinking and smoking dispite his illness).

And furthermore, he started texting me about his love to me several times a day. “You’re still the one for me.” “Good night sweetheart” “Goog morning sweetheart” and so on.

Well, of course I’m glad he’s doing better. But I don’t love him and don’t want this in my life. So, I had to call and explain.

What do I want to say here? Clean, clean and clean. Never stop. And don’t wait for the result. You never know where it can come from. Also I can say that we can help others by cleaning ourselves.

Peace begins with me. I love you. I thank you.

Radical Forgiveness

It’s not Ho’oponopono. But it finally helped me to LET GO.

Once I was having a coffee with my friend in a cafe. We haven’t been talking and seeing each other much lately. We’re different now. She’s busy with her own growing business. And I’m more into my spirituality. But sometimes we do meet just for a chat.

So, we were having coffee and she goes ‘How’s your ex? Have you heard from him?” (I must tell you that he’d gone to another country to totally change his life, his job, his lifestyle. And our last skype chat was almost 2 months ago.) I said ‘Nope”. And then she goes ‘He’s left for another woman, I can tell.” I go “No, he’s the kind of man who would never do such a move for a woman. But even if it’s so, that’s OK, I let him go.”

But when I came back home I burst out crying. I was thinking like “why am I crying? Didn’t I let him go?” So, sounded like I didn’t. I mean, deep inside me. I was upset.

Next few days I was just browsing the Internet and somehow I came across Radical Forgiveness book by Colin Tipping. I immediately thought it was just for me. So, I downloaded the book and started reading.

The 1st chapter was about Colin’s sister’s story. Wow! Reading the story I found I had a lot in common with it. And I cried, wept! I understood what was going on in my life. It was the awakening for me!

It was amazing that only reading the story healed me! A huge load lifted off my shoulders! I felt like flying, anew. But still the next day I tested my feelings worrying that it might had been only one moment miracle. But NO, it was true because I felt awsome.

You might say “But what about Ho’oponopono? Didn’t it help?” My answer is yes, it helped of course. It helped me to go through my break-up easier without drama. But probably my attachment was very strong so I needed something else. With Ho’o I think eventually I would truly let go. But Radical Forgiveness helped me do it instantly!

Ok, after my healing I continued reading the book itself and came to the conclusion that it has a lot in common with Ho’o. And I think I have been prepared for the book by Ho’o because I got such an instant result.

Go, buy the book now. Or visit  www.radicalforgiveness.com 

I love you!

 

 

 

Ho’oponopono Seminar with Mabel Katz

As I’m Russian, I went to a seminar with Mabel that was held in Moscow last weekend (18-19 June 2011).  I knew about the seminar long time ago and trusted my finances to God. I told myself – if I need the seminar I’ll have the money and will go. So, I needed it!

I put 3 aims for myself. 1. I wanted and felt the need to clean out all my ansestors. As I knew that both Mabel or Hew Len clean a lot before a seminar, clean the premises, the people and their families and ansestors. So, I really wanted that. 2. I felt like I needed to clean my heart chakra in my chest as I felt heavy there. 3. And of course I wanted to see Mabel with my own eyes, to feel her pure energy.

All my aims were fullfilled! I was awfully happy to meet Mabel, to hug and have a picture with her. She’s an amazing person! Big pure loving eyes. Pure loving smile. Open. She’s shining! She’s somewhat light! But at the same time I knew she was a doing a big job inside herself – cleaning.

The first day was only about Ho’oponopono. She was just talking, giving Hew Len’s cleaning tools. Taught how to use them. I wasn’t concerned very much about the tools as I have my own (the strawberry painting you see on the right). Anyone can get their tool as an Inspiration while cleaning. I was just listening to her, watching her and of course listening to my inside. And you know what? I had a headache, stomachache adn even later lower backache. I shared with people after the first day – everybody had a headache. We knew it was normal because we were experiencing a huge cleaning.

I don’t live in Moscow that’s why I stayed at my friend’s. When I came home after the 1st day I saw she wasn’t feeling well and at the same time she was complaining. I didn’t want to engage myself with that so I had sudden inspiration to use one of the new tools. I only uttered them inside me once when my friend felt much better and started moving around doing her stuff. She also offered to tell fortune using some kind of Archangel cards. I was too tired to resist. So I asked my inner questions and the cards ‘gave’ me answers. You won’t believe it but every time I asked a question, among other 2 cards that I chose there always was the card meaning “help of ansestors”. That was the sign for me that my ansestors got the cleaning. Amazing!

The second day was our job – we interracted with each other doing some tasks Mabel gave us. For example, we were asked to sit opposite a strange person and tell each other a problem. While listening to another person we had to just clean inside. While I was listening to a girl and cleaning I suddenly started crying, I couldn’t stop. I knew it was deep cleaning going on inside me. Many people in the room had tears.

After the seminar finished I knew I felt I was cleaned inside. I didn’t feel heavy in my chest. And I had a feeling that new horizons, new plans, new ideas are open for me now. I don’t know yet what kind. Just have such a feeling. Amazing!!

Some man shared after the seminar that he would spend a hundred times more money just to clean ansestors. The cleaning really was so powerful! I never regreted I went.

I love you!

 

Everybody around me is getting better. So am I!

I’ve heard good news from my friends lately.

My brother’s ex wife’s met a good man. I’m glad because they didn’t have happy marriage with my brother and finally divorced last November.

A friend of mine called me and told her story. She’s known one man for 5 years as friends. He made attempts to get closer to her but she refused. Then she wanted but he freaked out. So now, eventually they are together. And I’m happy for them too.

Another friend of mine got married a few months ago. I had a long and not very good story with her. I co-signed a bank loan for her. But she was delayed with her payments. So, they tried to make me pay but I didn’t want. So , I cleaned for that girl, for the situation. And here you go – she got married!

My close friend is successfully developing her real estate business. Another friend just finally found a job, she’s been out of work for quite a while.

When you clean using Ho’oponopono method, you release your memories, blocks, attachments, negative energies. And because we are all ONE, other people are getting cleaned too.

And these happy stories also show me that I’m on the right track in my life, I’m doing good. And my personal life’s getting better too. My finances are getting better. My relationship is developing.

Those girls are my mirrors. They show me myself. And I see myself a successful and happily married gal!!!

I love you! I thank you!

Releasing Aka Cords

The main reason to my mind why we have problems of break up is that we’re stuck to our partners. I realised that with my ex. And I used Ho’oponopono to let go. I learnt how to trust the Divine etc. I wrote about that many times. But deep inside I knew that the real reason was in Aka cords, that is invisible cords that keep us together. Probably my cords were very thick that my ex left for another country.

When I closed my eyes I could “see” the cords between us. I used many different techniques to cut them. With time I started noticing that the cord was becoming thinner and thinner. Two days ago I “saw” there was no cord any more. And you know what? He called me from another country! He asked me to come on skype and we chatted for a while. I already thought that cutting Aka Cords didn’t help. And here you are!! It worked!

Of course, I cleaned, talked to his inner child, read Morrnah’s prayers, did 12 steps. I used almost everything I knew and could think of.

As for us together, I don’t know. I’m giving it to God. I’ll continue doing the cleaning and everything. I don’t want to make the same mistakes again. I learnt my mistakes.

I’m not waiting, I’m not planning. I’m cleaning. Cleaning the place near me for my Mr. Right.

This time I want to be an Observer!

I love you! I thank you!

Unconditional Love

He and She. Couple. God created Man and Woman. God created them  to be together. If you look around you’ll see everything is in a couple. Male and Female. But also you can notice that people stopped being happy in a couple. They marry and divorce easily. Why? To my mind, they just sopped loving. They forgot how to love. To love unconditionally. To love without any demands. To love a partner just because he/she is in your life. Can you love like this?

God can love. God loves us unconditionally. He loves us different: poor and rich, healthy and sick, happy and unhappy, homeless etc. He loves us so much that He sends us life lessons, misfortunes and other bad things for us to grow stronger. But we don’t understand this and blame God for all bad happening in life. By blaming God and others you won’t go anywhere good.

I think to love means to trust. First of all trust God, trust yourself, trust God inside you. When you learn to trust and love yourself you’ll love and trust others.

I’m a normal person. I was a wife once. I’m a Mom. Looks like I’ve fullfilled the purpose of life. Nope. I’m a person who was created to be in a couple. And I’ve been trying to find Mr Right for 10 years now. Sometimes I demanded without giving back, sometimes I just didn’t trust or didn’t love, sometimes I had other aims, sometimes I forgot about myself. sometimes I idolized the partner. And as a result I’m alone. Though now I truly love.

My children are 21 and 23. They are growing and building their relationships. I’m glad that my children are open with me and share their problems. My daughter told me what was going on between her and her bf, and my son told me that he still had deep feelings for the girl he had broken up with 10 months ago. When I was listening to them, I saw myself in the same situations. It’s amazing how we are all connected and how everything’s repeated in our children.

But at the same time I understood that if I heard those stories and reacted, then it’s memories palying inside me. It’s that I still have the same problems deep inside me and hadn’t cleaned them up yet. I’m glad to have heard the kids. As now I know what to work on. I’m not done cleaning of course.And if clean all these programmes inside me, they will go away  from kids. My kids would feel better adn they will have better relationships.

I know now that when I’m in a relationship again, it’s gonna be different. Because I’ll continue cleaning. Because I’ll thank my partner for just being in my life. Because I trust God and will trust my partner.

I love you! I thank you!

I Still Feel Strong Affection

Two people  told me this today. Well I thought I was doing good with letting go. But it looks like  deep inside I still keep place for my ex. It’s natural as we’d been together for 6 years. He’s gone to another country now and I haven’t heard from him for over a month. But still deep inside I’m hopeful to hear from him.

I must admit this. And I did agree with the people. Having admitted this fact,  I’m aware of what’s going on. And it’s in my hands to change the situation by changing myself. Our enemies are inside us. And it’s great that you know your enemies. That means you know what to clean. For me personally it’s great and I thanked God for this fact, for my inside feelings. I shouldn’t be afraid of them, get upset or disappointed (I’ve been cleaning and cleaning and now nothing helps). No, it helped and helps!

Anyways, I’m doing really great with Ho’oponopono. I’m becoming stronger. I’m learning to appriciate this very moment. To appriciate what God’s giving me now.

How will I work on my inner affection to my ex? Of course, I’ll continue cleaning. My inner child is my partner now. That means I’ll talk to her more and ask for cleaning my memories. I’ll continue talking to my ex’s inner child especially when he’s asleep. I’ll thank him for being in my life, for everything that had been between us. Then I’ll continue saying Thank you to the situation itself.

From time to time I like to listen to Mabel Katz or Ihaleakala on the radio. Last time I heard Mabel saying: “if you hear a thought inside you and you don’t like it, if you hear a person say something and you don’t like it, if there’s a situation in your life and you don’t like it – just say Thank you, thank you, thank you many many times and see what will happen.”

Some people get very angry with their partner when they break-up, they say bad  rude words to each other, wish something bad. I must tell you, this is not a good way. You attract bad things into your life this way. Instead you should say Thank you, I love you, Thank you for being in my life. Well, I didn’t have a chance to say all this to my ex, but I say this inside me. Every day. Many times. Like a meditation or a prayer. It helps at least not to have bad feelings. And I’m hopeful, it will finally help me to let go.

God knows everything. God sends us people to teach us something. My ex gave me good life lessons. And I’m thankful for that.

God continues sending me people. Right now I have a new client. He’s disabled, he doesn’t have fingers on both his hands at all. Something happened to him long time ago. But I’m amazed at what’s happening to him now. He’s 47 but he’s healthy and very active. He’s divorced and has two children. He has a good business and supports the kids. He drives a car pretty well. He enjoys driving. He travels a lot for vacation. He goes regularly to the gym and lifts weights. He started learning  a foregn language just a year ago and he’s doing really good.

He appriciates every moment of his life. He doesn’t put money away, he spends money now. He already has everything he needs. Now he enjoys life, everything what life’s giving him. And he’s so energetic! He’s a good example for me of how to appriciate this very moment.

I thank you! I love you!

So, who’s the next?

I’ve been thinking today. My ex boyfriend’s gone, left for another country. We haven’t talked for just over a month. I’ve heard nothing from him. And I asked myself: so, what’s now? who’s the next?

I want to be clear here I still miss my ex, I still think about him. I’m still hopeful. But at the same time I’m cleaning, I’m communicating with my Inner child. I’m good inside. I’m Okay. I don’t cry, I don’t regret anything. On the contrary, I’m happy that this all happened to me. Because I’ve become stronger, cleaner, clearer of what was happening, why that was happening. I’ve understood the roots of the situation. I’ve accepted the situation. And I’m working on myself to change my inside.

I was  asked the other day what was my brightest miracle of using Ho’oponopono? I started thinking. Well, of course I had many of them connected with my job, my kids, my friends, parents and even things in the house. But they are all just trivial, not deep.

And then I thought about my relationship. The miracle for me is that I accepted the situation easily. I mean without tears, arguments, histerics. The miracle for me is that I learned to understand myself. I gained myself back. Though I still miss my ex but I’m a different person now, on a different level of life.

Having said that I thought about my future. My friends (who know my situation and him pretty well) say that he’ll be back, he’ll turn up. Because we do have a bond. But the question is when? When I already forget him? Will I want him then? Will I meet somebody else?

Well, cleaning with Ho’oponopono we shouldn’t ask these questions. All we need to do is clean. As Doctor Hew Len says “when you clean and are clean anything can happen, the right person will show up”. Or the ex will show up but he will be different inside as I’m already different. So, I just don’t know what’s gonna be, who’ll be the next or will there be anybody else? I don’t know.

Right now I just talk to my inner child like this “My Unihipili, I love you, I thank you for being part of me. I’m sorry for my memories playing inside and causing your saddness, your hopes. Please let me go off the memories. Thank you for your wish to help me clean and hand in hand walk towards the Light. I love you, I thank you.”

Every day, I talk to my ex’s inner child. I tell him whatever comes into my mind. And I look back at our years together and thank him for being part of my life, for supporting me in my painting, for just being beside.

Everything’s gonna be allright! I love you!

Why Ho’oponopono?

Yes. Why? As I’ve tried different practices in my life to be happy. Affirmations, positive thinking, visualisations etc. I’ve read many kinds of books. Well, of course I got something good from each one of them. But I wasn’t 100% happy. Actually I was but … for only a while and then everythng would come back again. I don’t know why, I can’t explain that. I know many people follow some practice and are happy. Probably I was looking for the one that would suit me, my inner state, my inner urge.

I’ve been on my search since 1994. And I found Ho’oponopono in 2010. I was in a deep emotional dependability from a man. And I had a sudden wish to get out of that. I told my friend “I want to clean my inside from all my negativity.” I asked God for help and He gave me Ho’o.

What I liked was that I could clean my inside. I was interested only in that. I wanted to calm down, to get back to myself.

Hoo is easy. All you need is just utter to yourself the 4 phrases I’m sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you, I love you. But the impact is deep! The phrases help let go your memories that cause all kinds of negative feelings and situations.

I needed that because I felt that the root of my problems was somewhere deep in me. And visualisations and positive thinking weren’t working for me. If you want to cure an illness, curing only symptoms doesn’t help, you need to heal the cause. If you have some kind of limitations inside, only positive thinking and affirmations won’t help. You need to clean out the limitations.

I watched those 3 ZeroLimits videos Joe Vitale made. I liked how Dr. Hew Len explained about the Zero, how the process of cleanig worked. It’s interesting, while watching or reading something people “hear/read” the needed information. Well, I for one like the idea that we’re all connected and if you are clean that everybody else is clean. If you aren’t that somebody in Africa may suffer. Amazing! And I noticed if I’m sorrow today then tomorrow my son will call and tell me what a bad thing happened to him.

Then also I liked the idea concerning relationships. When you clean, the right partner will turn up. I like it!! I’m after a break-up now. I’m truly okay! I let the man go, do whatever he wants. I’m into myself now. I’m working on myself, I’m cleaning my inner memories. I’m improving my gift of painting cleaning Ho’oponopono paintings. I’ve already made 3 paintings for other people (in Russia, Finland and the US). www.cleaningpainting.wordpress.com/english/

I’m happy with myself now. Because I have Hoo. Hoo helped me to find myself, to let go off my memories and expectations (not 100% though, it’s a lifetime process), to be truly free inside (and I finally felt it’s an amazing feeling!).

As for a new partner. I’m not in a search. I’m cleaning. But I’m sure now that the right partner will turn up soon. I’m not waiting. I’m improving myself.

Also, in those videos I liked the Inner Child meditation. Cool! Though I already had a good contact with my inner child, I uttered the meditation several times. I want deeper and closer relationship with my inner child. And it’s working for me. I “talk” to inner children of my own kids, my parents, the man, some people.

In Ho’oponopono I like the idea that working on yourself, cleaning yourself only, we help other people without talking to them, interfering, nagging, arguing. Awsome!

I love you!

Zero Limits Online! Video about Ho’oponopono.

 

I’m subscribed to Joe Vitale’s newsletter. In his last email he sent this link to a free video about Ho’oponopono. It’s just only lesson number 1. Gonna be more!

http://www.zerolimitsonline.com

 

I love you!

 

 

Stop Wanting More!

Stop wanting more! Appreciate what you have now!

I think it’s in the human nature to always want more. We want a bigger salary. We want a bigger house. We want and want and want.

I’m the same. I’m human. I also want more money. I want more beautiful clothes. I want more clients for my business. Etc…

But lately, using Ho’oponopono to clean my inside programes, my inside limits to happiness, I started realising that we should just appreciate what we have right now.

I remember better times in my life when I used to make more money. Why? Because I didn’t want more. I just was happy with what I had at  the moment. I appreciated what life gave me then.

My ex boyfriend is the kind of a man who would hardly say he loves you. And I remember only one bunch of roses in 6 years. But he would cook, clean, do groceries, take care of you sick, drive  back to the store only because he forgot to get sour cream for pancakes. He would grab my underwear together with his and put into the washing machine and then fold my bras and panties.

Me??? Deep inside I wanted something more. More kisses, more hugs, more flowers. Yeah, sure, you will say, we women are emotional and we all need that. If we don’t get this with one man we go to another.Which I think is wrong anyways.

I didn’t want another man. I wanted him. And I suffered. SILLY!!!!! Only now I understand how silly I was!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Why don’t we appreciate the groceries he brings home? Why don’t we appreciate clean dishes? Why don’t we appreciate cut grass, clean car?? Why???  Why do we get offended when he wants to relax on the couch after a hard day?

We aren’t together now. But we still keep in touch. I don’t know why but we still talk on skype, send emails. We can talk for hours. About everything.

Oh, how I appreciate our time together now! No matter how we spend it. But I’m thankful to God that I still have that little chance to see my ex, to talk to him.

I’m not analizing what’s happening, why that’s happening. I just take what life’s giving me now. I accept the situation, I say ‘I love you’ to the situation and I let go the situation.

He’s moving to another country for work. I might never see him…..

Look around. There’s a lot to appreciate right now. There’s a lot to be thankful for. One of my friends soulmates said “why would God give you more if you don’t appreciate what you have right now?”  Does it make sense?

I’m not waiting for more. I’m a realist now. I appreciate what God’s giving me right now with my man, I appreciate the kind of business opportunities for me at the moment, I accept Life the way it is now.

I love you!

I trust

Have you ever seen the movie Sanctum? No? Go, see. You won’t regtret it. I’m not gonna tell you the plot. But only one phrase that got me in the right track “Trust the cave and it will lead you out”.

Unfortunately, many times in our life we struggle. Struggle for love, struggle for money, for our kids, and etc. That means we just don’t trust. We want to control. We want to pull the ropes. We want to get what we think right for us or even for others. And if things get out of our control we suffer, we blame others.

But how about stop all that, relax and let God do all the stuff for us?  Because He knows us better than we do. He knows what’s better for us and of course for the others.

When we trust the Divine that means we don’t stuggle any more. As we know that God will arrange everything for us in a perfect way.

Play a game. When you’re in a situation you don’t want to be, just relax and let “the cave lead you out”. Tell yourself ‘I can’t do anything about the situation, I’m done, it’s time to let God do the stuff’. Then relax and even forget about it. Later you’ll see what will happen. You might not like the outcome. But again, later you’ll see the benefits.

The same happened to me. Or is still happening. I let my situation with my ex to God. As I know I cannot do anything here. I let the man go. My heart’s still with him. But I’m different. I love and respect myself more. I’m back to myself, I’m myself now.

I’ve been tense for a while with the situation working on myself, trying to let go off my expectations. But now  I’m truly free. Even my body reacted on the situation: as soon as I relaxed I got sick. I think it’s because I’d been so tense. You may laugh but true, illness doesn’t come out of the blue. It’s a concequence of our thoughts. Read Luisa Hey. She says a lot about that.

So, I’m free, relieved, relaxed. I’m happy with myself.

Some people say that another relationship can help you survive the pain of break-up. Maybe. And that happened to me earlier. We stick to another person as a saviour. But in the end – another break-up.

Nope, I want it different this time. I want a full recovery. I’ve had enough. I want a true long-term relationship, a loving one. Trustworthy. I want to get old on one pillow with my man.

That’s why I trust the cave to lead me out. I trust God to lead me through life.

I Let Him Go!!

Yesterday, I was skating with my friend.  And during a break we were having tea, chatting. I told her that I still missed my ex. You know what she said? She said  “Few days ago, I noticed in your eyes that you had let him go. I can tell.” Wow! I didn’t know that, I was still working on myself, cleaning.

She said ” You are free now, open to love and you will start noticing men’s attention”.

I like what I’m feeling at the moment. I’m calm inside. I trust God that everything’s fine.

I remember  Joe Vitale said in his article – ‘this moment makes your future ‘.

http://blog.mrfire.com/the-secret-to-instant-manifestation-part-two/

So, I’m looking into my future with no fears.

I noticed that some readers of this blog come here having searched on the internet the way how Ho’oponopono helps overcome a break-up.You can read my posts below telling all my way to recovery.

Now, I’m true example of it working good. Yes, Ho’oponopono helped me to go through my break-up much easier and faster than in earlier years. And I’m different now and can attract the relationship I deserve, my inner state deserves.

I’m thankful to God for this situation, I’m blessed. I’m thankful to my ex and send him my love.

The situation helped to look inside myself, to trully fall in love with myself. I learned how to communicate with my inner child. And God presented me with a gift to paint cleaning paintings to help people clean.

http://cleaningpainting.wordpress.com/english/

I love you!

I Won!!

So, now it’s been two months since we broke up. I’ve had different feelings. I can’t say that I’ve always felt peace in my heart. No! I’m a normal woman who can cry and make things look and sound worse than they are.

But the difference with me this time was – I’ve been using Ho’oponopono to clean out everything inside me that caused my situation. I asked my inner child for help. I talked to my soulmates who are in Hoo too. I listened to Mabel Katz and Dr Ihaleakala on the radio, I read Joe Vitale’s blog. I used my time to the most. I painted my personal Hooponopono cleaning tool.

The result??? Oh yeah, I’ll tell you in a moment.

Yesterday I talked to my ex! First time in two months! I couldn’t believe myself! I was calm inside, I didn’t feel upset or anything. No! We talked as if nothing had happened but … decided to be apart. For how long? Nobody knows. Maybe we’ll never be together again. It’s only in God’s hands.

But, being into Hooponopono and knowing how to recognize my programes inside I understood what’d happened between us.

It all comes from women’s wish to control everything! It’s our inside dependability on a man. Yes, we love and want to be with him. And having this desire we don’t notice how become stuck to men, tied up with thick ropes.

I understood that earlier, when we were together. I tried to cut this rope. But didn’t know how. Now with Hoo I managed! Or at least I know how and I’m doing this. My rope is becoming thinner and thinner.

The idea of Hooponopono is Let Go and Let God. Yes, let’s stop controlling our men. Let the man go and if he’s YOUR man, he’ll come back!

I hear and read different stories where it takes years for people (6 months the least) to overcome the break up. It took me two months of cleaning my programes. I don’t know how I’d feel if I wasn’t using Hoo. Because I’m really in deep true love with him.

So, now I’m still working on letting him go, cleaning and cleaning.

And most important – don’t wait for the result. As you don’t know what it could be. It could be anything but … GOOD for you anyways!

I love you!

My Personal Ho’oponopono Instrument

I’ve never been to a Ho’oponopono seminar, so I don’t know about other instruments that they offer. I’ve only read Joe Vitale’s book Zero Limits where he tells about 4 phrases I’m sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you, I love you. And I’ve been using this easy tool to clean out my memory, to let go and let God for 7 months now. I’m also a user of the Russian official  Ho’oponopono Forum.

The main reason why I came to Hoo was to set myself free from my emotional dependance on my partner. I felt I was in a trap and wanted to be free. So, I decided to give it a chance. I’ve been doing good and progressing. Of course with ups and downs as for so many years I’d been living by my deep  inner programes and now I’m erasing them. I’ve learned how to communicate with the inner child. I started “hearing” my child. Inner child is our subconscious mind, our “heart”.

Also, I have a passion to paint pictures. It’s my hobby.

So, I’m going through a hard period of my relationship and during my “communication” with my Inner Child I decided to paint a picture for her. And I did. To my surprise, it turnded out to be  my personal cleaning tool. An advanced practitioner of Hoo told me about this. She said it just came to her that my picture erases deep programes of conflict between a man and woman. It’s amazing because she didn’t know about my situation.

Moreover, I didn’t know myself that I needed this kind of a tool. But my Inner Child knew! My Inner Child knows how hard it’s to go through a break-up. And my Baby gave me this tool. It’s cleaning when I’m not cleaning! It’s cleaning when I’m looking at it. It’s cleaning when I’m thinking about it!

Amazing how God works!

This is my painting. You can also see it on my webpage on the right.

I love you!

I Opened My Door!

I’ve opened MY door today!!

There are many doors in front of us. You open one door, it’s not yours. Then you open another one, it’s not yours again. You do that until you open the one. Or you stop looking. It’s your choice.

A door maybe anything for you: your job, your lover, your hobby … anything you are looking for.

My door is everything in one. I’ve been looking for it all my life. And today I opened it. I was just on my way to work deep in my thoughts, saying to myself “i’m sorry, please forgive me, i love you, i thank you”. And then all of a sudden  it dawned on me – Yes, that’s it, that’s MY door!!!!

First, I felt as if all tiny details matched into one puzzle. I felt easy inside. I felt relieved. I felt a huge load lifted off my shoulders.

I looked back at some events in my life and understood their reason. Like I said everything came into its place. Everything’s explained now. Phew!!! I’m happy now!

Then I felt tender love and gratitude to my ex boy friend. Because thanks to him, his attitude, his fears and hesitation I made myself. Yes, now I can say I Found Myself!

And few moments later I felt I wasn’t afraid of the future any more. I knew what to do in my life and how to live my life. I knew I could love every moment of my life here and now.

It’s hard to explain everything I’m feeling right now. I’m just overwhelmed!

I say THANK YOU to my man!

I say THANK YOU to Ho’oponopono!

I say THANK YOU to GOD!!!!

I love you!!!!

Friends and your break-up

Okay, you are going through a break-up. It’s not an easy process of recovering, analyzing, sorting yourself out and so on. Very often you need just a human, loving and caring support. Right. Usually, your true friends are good at it. But how do they help you? It depends on what you need. If you need tears, they will say something to make you cry. If you want a cold shower, they’ll say something to bring you back to life fast.

I’ve had all of that. Tears and cold showers. But you know, nothing really helped, because later in another relationship everything repeated with a man. I mean that friends didn’t really help, they only said what you wanted. You wanted support, you got it. But with another partner  you made the same mistakes and were left alone  … again.

I don’t want to make the same mistakes all over again. I’m going through a break-up right now. And I’m doing it different this time. I’m using Ho’oponopono system of changing my inside by cleaning my programes. I’m learning how to change my atittude to life , to the situation and to people.

I already wrote about what I’m doing in my previous posts below. This time I’d like to share how my best friend helped me with this.

Well, first couple days after the break-up she gave me a cold shower. I listened to her and didn’t say anything. Three weeks later we had a sharp argument with her. I told her I still loved my ex. She gave my ex all bad words she knew! She was angry, she was giving  her judgements and assessments of his personality. Wow! She was new to me at that moment as I’d never seen her like that.

But I told her that I still loved her though I didn’t agree with her at all. I was upset that she didn’t understand me, she didn’t hear me.

I talked to my soulmates from Ho’oponopono. They explained that all the feelings she was experiencing were hidden deep in me. As other people are like our mirrors. Look at others and you will know what to change inside you.

So, if I heard my friend being irritated, giving assessments and judgements then I have the same emotions deeply hidden in me of which I might not be aware. I’m glad I was explianed all this. I’m happy I had that argument with my friend. As now I know what to work on inside me.

My ex helped me to work on some other things inside me. Now I got another task from my best friend. And I’m really happy. Because I’m changing inside. And that means that if I am ever again in another relationship, all will be different.

People come to our life and go. Why? They come to give us lessons. They leave after they’ve completed the task.

We’ve been friends for over 20 years. Now I realise our paths went apart.

How to get through break-up easier

You can find lots of advice how to overcome break-ups. They suggest taking up some hobby/sport, getting involved in some activities, travelling, burying yourself in work, in reading, finding another partner and so on. And all the advice are good! Some time will pass and you will find yourself in another relationship trying to make it longterm and saying to yourself that this time everything’s different. Yeah, maybe or hope so…

I’ve been through this. I mean after recovering I found myself in a new relationship hoping that this time it would be different. But all the time, I was wrong. Everything repeated. Though, during my break-ups I took up yoga and opened my own business.

The Creator (the Divine) showed me again and again that I was on the wrong path in my life which I didn’t realize at that time. Untill I met , as I think, my true love. Maybe it was done on purpose by God so that I would learn my lessons with the man. God just wants me to be happy and not to repeat the same mistakes.

That’s why God gave me this ancient system of cleaning my inner programes, my memory. I started cleaning in August 2010. I decided to give Ho’oponopono the chance because I felt I was emotionally dependant on my partner. I knew that I couldn’t change it myself. I mean, I tried other techniques but failed.

The man left me in January 2011. Unexpectedly. To my surprise, my heart wasn’t broken. Well, I was upset of course and cried. And when I thought about him I had sad feelings adn maybe hopes inside me.  But at the same time I felt easy.

It’s been now 4 weeks since the last talk with him. I’ve been cleaning and cleaning non-stop. I must admit that first three weeks it was hard as I still hoped and waited. It seemed to me that cleaning didn’t help. But I continued cleaning and was working on myself really hard. I listened to Mabel Katz and Dr. Ihaleakala on the radio, read their articles, read Ho’oponopono forum. I took 100% responsibility for everything happened between us.

Then I was advised to talk to his inner child and ask how I can help him. His inner child asked me ‘just love me’. So, I sent my love to him, I didn’t think any bad thoughts about the man. I mean, I stopped thinking bad about him.

My friend said maybe I should also clean my situation with my ex husband whom I divorced 11 years ago. It’s also in my memory. I also took 100% responsibility for our divorce.  I cleaned only during one evening and suddenly I felt a load lifted off my shoulders!  Wow, it worked! I talked to my ex husband’s inner child as well. I felt better and better. I mean I stopped hoping and waiting.

The next thing I did was I started thanking those programes inside me that led me to this situation. Wow! Again, I felt easier.

The main purpose of cleaning is to let go the problem and let God. You know that sometimes it’s really very very hard to let go. But this Ho’oponopono system works and it helped me to finally let go and stop hoping and waiting. I felt I did let go last night and this morning. It’s still fresh. I’ll continue cleaning of course as it’s a non-stop process.

I’m not thinking about a new relationship. Yet.. The most important for me was to learn to let go and let God.

Those who are in a break-up process, why not try Ho’oponopono and let go??? You’ll see the difference!

 

 

 

 

The closer the person the more they hurt you. How come?

True…. All people who come into your life are your teachers. They “teach” you different stuff. It depends on what your soul needs to be taught. If somebody steals something from you then it’s a lesson for you to be careful. If somebody offends you then it’s maybe a lesson for you to be stronger. Or something like that.

It happened so in my life that I got lessons from the men I dated. Being a weak person, my ex-husband taught me to be strong and depend on myself and make my career. Having become an alcoholic he taught me to learn to trust in God.

So, I left my husband having taken my two little kids. I worked hard. I made good money. But at the same time I wanted happiness for myself. So, I started my search for the Right Man. I fell in love with every man I met and dated for a year or more. Everything was fine between us. But they all left me. Them, not me. I didn’t know why. I thought I was a good choice for them as was a nice woman, loving and caring.

When the 4th man left me, I thought “there’s something wrong with you lady, not them”. I must tell you that this man was really the One, I felt that inside. My heart was really broken as I thought finally I met Him and he’s gone.

Well, 1st thing I did just to heal my wound, – I took up yoga. At the same time I read lots of different spiritual books to find the answer. The answer was simple at the moment – I too much idealized him. Well, I learnt how to let him go, how to let go my wish to find Mr Right.

Maybe I was successful in that because my Dream Man came back into my life. He wrote me 4 months later after we broke up. I did’t let him back. Probably I wasn’t ready. But then, 6 months later I wrote him myself. And we started our relationship again. And have been together since. It’s 5,5 years alltogether.

During last 4 years we had all kinds of things between us. I mean 2 months separation, sharp arguments. Which couples don’t have that? It’s life, it’s getting to know each other.

But with us it’s diferent. I realised that as soon as we got really close to each other he ran away. He’s afraid of commitment. He had unhappy marriage and he’s still afraid of making a mistake. When such escapes occured I was upset, my heart was broken, I blamed myself. I always tried to prove him I was a good woman and can be trusted.

I met his parents. His Mom lived with us in his house. I get on really well with her. And my Dream Man talked to his aunty the Nun about the wedding in a church. I thought everything was settled.

But I was wrong. He took three weeks break in our relationship to make his final decision. And after he said NO.

I had two kinds of reactions. The 1st – how come? 5 years together and we’re soulmates and bla bla bla. The 2nd reaction – phew, finally I got at least some end of the story. Probably the relationship exhausted my heart.

But… I’m here to tell you about something different. About life lessons. Now, being a spiritually prepared person I look at all our situations, his attitude towards me as life lessons. You know that our inner thoughts create situations around us, attract certain people to our life.

So, God sent me this man for me to fall in true love with him so that I could get true lessons. Because when other men left me I didn’t understand the real reasons. So, I needed some real deep feelings to “learn” the life.

Looking back at our relationship, I can say I’m trully thankful to him for everything he did, for his attitude, for his fears, his not being confident, for his run aways. Nothing was bad. Everything was good and right for me and him. I learnt my lessons.

I’m happy with one more thing. Ho’oponopono! Yes, this method helped me really find myself, find peace in my heart, the method taught me how to let go our situation. Earlier when he ran away, I cried a lot, I couldn’t sleep well. Now, I’m different. I sleep well, I cried only for first ten minutes. I really didn’t expect such my reaction, but true I’m calm inside. Of course there are moments when I feel a little upset and I still have some little hope inside. But on the whole, it’s different.

It’s now two weeks since our last talk. I’m fine. My heart is not broken. I trust God. He wants to show me something again. I don’t know yet what exactly. I don’t know what’s gonna be this time with me and him. He’s deep in my heart. But the answer will come soon. The most important for me now is to let go let God!

I love you!! I thank you!!

PS.: By the way, I came to Ho’oponopono to set myself free from my emotional trap I got with my man. So, I think I made it!!!!!

So good to be 100% responsible for other people!

When something bad happens to us, we blame others. When a person acts the way you don’t like, we blame them. And all kinds of different emotions blow up inside us – Why? How can it be? People are rude and indifferent! etc……

Last week something unpleasant happened. I was furious inside! How come people can be so rude! I don’t deserve it! And so on. I felt sorry for myself! For a couple hours…

But at the same time I was uttering those 4 phrases to myself.  I’m sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you. It’s already my habbit. These phrases are my background, they are always there, in my head.

At some moment a thought came into my mind – why am I being so sad and angry as this is totally my responsibility! It’s my thoughts and inner programmes that created the situation, that influenced the person’s behaviour.

I felt as if huge weight lifted off my shoulders! And I went deeper into myself. I wasn’t thinking about changing the situation, about the result of cleaning. I was thinking only about finding peace in my heart, about changing my attitude to the situation and the person.

And I found it! I calmed down. I stopped thinking about negative things. I felt real peace inside!

I was surprised later how the situation changed! The result was even better than I thought!

And I said to myself “It’s good to be 100% responsible for others and really understand this.”Try it, and you will see the difference.

I love you!

Somewhere over the rainbow ……

Beautiful song!! Inspiring! Enjoy!!!

Joe Vitale’s video seminar on Ho’oponopono

Here Joe Vitale explains how Ho’oponopono works.

Don’t miss it! Have a look!

http://blog.mrfire.com/healing-with-hooponopono/

Or click on the link on the right

I love you!

 

Something to help brighten your day

The day  God dropped the paint bucket

When God paints ……

We live in an awesome world.
Make it an awesome day.
Peace To All and May God Bless You
Live simply.
Love generously.
Care deeply.
Speak kindly.
Leave the rest to God.